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To protect those who come to me.
To love those who trust me.
To move obstacles for those who need me.
To make life easier for everyone else.
To care even when no one cares about me.
To love when no one loves me.
To listen when no one hears me.
To remember when everyone else forgets me.
To be a light even when my heart is dark.
To bring happiness to others when I can't even smile.
To stand from far.. and watch others.
To be a Force that pushes the ones I love from behind and pulls them to their feet when they fall.
If Only I am given the chance to...
Posted on Tuesday, December 26, 2017 at 11:29 PM

When all hell breaks loose and my world falls apart i always come back here because somewhere in me a part hopes that you still care enough to check in on me once in a while, claire. And i always feel that you understand my pain the most over all these years. And its fine if you feel you cant do anything cos all i need is someone who listens and understands. Thats more than enough. I need some hope. Any small amount of hope. Someone to tell me it will be alright. 


Posted on Tuesday, December 5, 2017 at 10:43 AM

it really really hurts.

that we only remember the good times when they are gone and i cant stop it from happening even now. when i know that i still do have good times but i just cant register them because the unhappiness is overwhelming. 

so many friends i had to let go off over the years and every single one leaves a mark.
its painful to admit i feel lonely over all the years and i never could move forward.

its painful to admit that i made a decision rushing into a job thinking that i didnt have a choice when in the past i constantly reminded myself never to do it.

am i just a coward who ran from my dreams? or did i rise to the challenge and do something i may not enjoy because i felt i would benefit from it?

All i have left is God and faith to rely on. if i dont have that then i would have been gone by now.
The pain is so suffocating and hopeless.


Posted on Monday, October 9, 2017 at 11:02 PM

long road ahead


Posted on Sunday, September 3, 2017 at 3:49 AM

Just gotta keep praying and having faith. My life has always been directed by God and all i do is withstand the waves that come. I guess it makes me take many blessings for granted but i always try to remember everything that i can and thank God for them. Ive come this far but i know its just the beginning and putting it on a resume just makes it all the more apparent. School means nothing, temporary jobs mean nothing, ns means nothing.

Ive gotta find myself and the true answer to my existence. I cant expect myself to find it in 6 mths or less but i gotta keep searching and praying.


Posted on Wednesday, August 16, 2017 at 2:16 AM

I feel so alone and sad in this world.
no one to truly resonate with and understand my pain.

I am so depressed.


Posted on at 2:04 AM

heartbroken by life.


Posted on Tuesday, August 15, 2017 at 11:51 PM

can't describe the joy i felt in korea. Almost like everything i wanted. just enjoying simple joys with friends. but it hit me hard when i got back to sg cos i felt like i could never get it back again. and it reminded me how much i still crave love